Jan 2012 Update

Holy wow its been a while since I last wrote. I have been living on my own for almost 8 months now and it has gotten so much easier. I started my bachelor degree this past October so that is good. I got the OK to get my license back so I am working on doing that and I have a job interview on Wednesday. Things are looking up. Clara is soooo smart, she is fully potty trained, she can write about 5 different words. She is the light of my life. We had an amazing Christmas and a great new years... not sure what else is new in our lives besides those things... Oh, my cousin is expecting a baby, i'm soooo excited about that. She is gonna have a beautiful little boy (first baby boy in like 4 generations). So yeah guess i'll write more when new things happen. I hope you all have a wonderful day!!

Summer Update!!!

Well, Clara and I finally moved out on our own. We have been living in this amazing two bedroom apartment for almost a month now. Clara has her own room and also has a new twin size bed along with a dresser and a toy cubby thing. I graduated from college with a 3.0GPA (sadly i was hoping it would be higher). I would like for you all to imagine that life is amazing for me right now even though it's not because then you will not have to worry about me. I suppose i will tell the truth though, although i love living on my own i am struggling. No one will help me with my daughter i am doing it 100% of the time on my own. She doesnt listen, she makes a mess, i'v been having seizure after seizure after seizure this week. I do know it is due to stress, problem is, its not like stress from my family where i could move out. This stress will never go away because i will forever be a parent. So there i said it. Bye for now, will write more when i'm in a better mood.

Update for 2011

Well its been about 3 months since my last update. Clara is now 3 years old!!! It seems very hard to believe. We turned our walk in closet into her very own room which she absolutely adores because its pink. She has the flu right now so things are kind of hectic at our home. I am in my final week of this block of classes and after my next block i will officially be a college graduate because i will have my associates degree in Psychology. My boyfriend Shane and i are doing very good. We have been dating for almost 7 months now. Yesterday was Valentines day. Shane made me a delicious steak dinner and also got me a dozen long stem red roses, some really awesome perfume, a card and some chocolates (GO SHANE!!). Next week is my 21st birthday and although I do plan on going out and having a few drinks I am NOT planning on getting shitfaced drunk. So sorry to spoil your guy's fun, but i am not taking a million shots. Well that is all for now, I will update more when i have more to say.

Update

Today was a pretty uneventful day. Clara and I got pumpkins yesterday and are planning on carving them a week before Halloween. Which by the way, Clara is going to be a fairy princess. My school called today and told me that they put my Bachelor degree classes online for me to look at along with my schedule for the classes. After i am done with my associates in April, i am planning on take two-three months off which then puts my graduate date for my bachelors for May of 2013. Back on the topic of Clara. I have been working with her every day on shapes, colors, numbers and letters. She can do her alphabet but i am working on having her recognize them. I have flashcards for her and everything. I have signed up for NetFlix and have been watching movies every single night for the past few days. I am now watching a movie entitled Julie and Julia. It is about a cook, and a lady who blogs about this cook's recipes that she tries. It is making me extremely hungry. Well that is all for now. Have a good day guys!!!

Randomosity

Yes i do know the title to this blog is not a real word, but i have so much to talk about and no real theme to it.... basically i just want to ramble about random stuff. One thing, is people EASEDROPPING on my phone calls, and then trying to talk to me about stuff they THINK they heard. I know my grandma is just worried about me but seriously, im not a 12 year old little girl, i am an adult, i do not need my phone calls monitored. Second of all, i am getting sick and tired of my grandmas dog running all over the damn front yard barking and carrying on whenever someone drives by or is out for a walk. AND running all over gods creation to bark at the neighbor dog who could prolly easily swallow my german shepard in one bite. Another thing is that Clara is the love of my life, not in a romantic way but u get what i mean, all of you that have children will understand that im talking about. She is a sweet, smart, funny, beautiful little girl and i love her to death but sometimes... she gets on mommy's last nerve, like today... she thought it would be HILARIOUS to spray everything in my room with MR. CLEAN... how she it i have no idea, it was in my closet but i'm thinking she had help from a cousin of hers. Anyway ya, i am also a bit irritated that Shane did not come over to see me tonite when he said he would. I know, I know i shouldn't be mad and i probably would not be at all mad if i had adequite nicotine in my system, in which i do not and haven't had a full cigarette in my system since sometime Sunday afternoon. I know you all say i should quit well TOO BAD. there is only 2 things that are getting me to quit. You wanting me to quit, sadly is not one of them. but ok enough rambling for now, im gonna try to control my craving some other way.

School

Ok, so it is the 14th of September, and i just started classes again yesterday. I have been out of school for pretty much all summer, so i'm feeling a little overwhelmed. BUT they are two psych classes and i LOVE LOVE LOVE psychology so it should be pretty fun and easy once i can get going. Clara starts early Headstart next Monday. She goes on the bus at 7:30am, and will be home around noon every Monday. She eats breakfast there AND lunch and they do arts and crafts and PE. I guess I failed to realize just how smart my daughter is. I mean, i knew she was smart but seeing some of the other children in her classroom, she seems like... extremely extremely advanced for her age, its NUTS. She has gone from saying "ya" to "yes" literally overnight which is good. I rearranged my room a little bit so that she has more playing room in here. i switched her toy box for a smaller one because she doesn't play with all the stuff she has in there so i pretty much took her dolls, some toys from her dad and the toys she adopted from when i was little and put them in there, then i went downstairs and found something to use for a bookshelf and made a little book corner in the closet next to her toy box. This is good for me as well because reading Clara about 8 books every night kinda get tiring when i have to dig through a big box lol. But anyway, thats all for now..... more caffeine is needed now so that i can do my school work. Bye for now.

hmm well its been about two weeks since i last wrote. I still haven't start classes up again because well apparently i had some financial aid stuff to fill out so now i dont get to start classes up again till this coming monday. Last weekend (last week in august) me and clarabug went to the fair, and she rode the marry-go-round like 4x, she rode on the bikes and the boats, and they wouldnt let her ride on the train cuz they said she was too short (shes 37 1/4 inches btw but apparently the guy didnt measure her correctly) so that kind of pissed me off. Two days prior, me and Shane went to the fair, just walked around.. pigged out on rediculously overpriced fair food and played a few games. Shane won me a huge bear that has pictures of benjamin franklins all over it, and then spend 4x as much winning clara a toy.. which is cute and she loves it but anyway. i got a new thermometer last week and its freaking awesome, its a thermometer that works in both your ear AND your forehead. It also has a date, time on it as well as the room temp. oh and it talks to u, like actually TELLS you what ur temp is, it also has like a mini flashlight just in case ur doing temp checks on the kids in the middle of the night, its awesome. i got my computer screen fixed so im happy about that, and as you can tell im just extremely bored so i'll stop rambling now, hopefully next time i have something interesting to say ;)