School

Ok, so it is the 14th of September, and i just started classes again yesterday. I have been out of school for pretty much all summer, so i'm feeling a little overwhelmed. BUT they are two psych classes and i LOVE LOVE LOVE psychology so it should be pretty fun and easy once i can get going. Clara starts early Headstart next Monday. She goes on the bus at 7:30am, and will be home around noon every Monday. She eats breakfast there AND lunch and they do arts and crafts and PE. I guess I failed to realize just how smart my daughter is. I mean, i knew she was smart but seeing some of the other children in her classroom, she seems like... extremely extremely advanced for her age, its NUTS. She has gone from saying "ya" to "yes" literally overnight which is good. I rearranged my room a little bit so that she has more playing room in here. i switched her toy box for a smaller one because she doesn't play with all the stuff she has in there so i pretty much took her dolls, some toys from her dad and the toys she adopted from when i was little and put them in there, then i went downstairs and found something to use for a bookshelf and made a little book corner in the closet next to her toy box. This is good for me as well because reading Clara about 8 books every night kinda get tiring when i have to dig through a big box lol. But anyway, thats all for now..... more caffeine is needed now so that i can do my school work. Bye for now.

hmm well its been about two weeks since i last wrote. I still haven't start classes up again because well apparently i had some financial aid stuff to fill out so now i dont get to start classes up again till this coming monday. Last weekend (last week in august) me and clarabug went to the fair, and she rode the marry-go-round like 4x, she rode on the bikes and the boats, and they wouldnt let her ride on the train cuz they said she was too short (shes 37 1/4 inches btw but apparently the guy didnt measure her correctly) so that kind of pissed me off. Two days prior, me and Shane went to the fair, just walked around.. pigged out on rediculously overpriced fair food and played a few games. Shane won me a huge bear that has pictures of benjamin franklins all over it, and then spend 4x as much winning clara a toy.. which is cute and she loves it but anyway. i got a new thermometer last week and its freaking awesome, its a thermometer that works in both your ear AND your forehead. It also has a date, time on it as well as the room temp. oh and it talks to u, like actually TELLS you what ur temp is, it also has like a mini flashlight just in case ur doing temp checks on the kids in the middle of the night, its awesome. i got my computer screen fixed so im happy about that, and as you can tell im just extremely bored so i'll stop rambling now, hopefully next time i have something interesting to say ;)

Summer Update

Well... that asshole steve broke up with me, I do not think i realized how unhappy i was because he was indeed depressed, which made me depressed. Anyway, he started dating someone the very next day so screw it. I am dating a guy named Shane now, he is really sweet, we have A LOT in common, and he is a very positive person which is going to take some getting used to since Steve was definately NOT a positive person. Anyway, Clara is doing good, talking more and more each day, she can do half her abc's, count to 10 and do 3 nursery rhymes. I start school in 2 weeks so im excited about that. Back to this whole shane thing, i really do like him but i'm holding off on the love thing for as long as i can, i do NOT want to be hurt again. I feel like he is way to good to be true, and if something seems to good to be true, it usually is.

Summer

Well it is actually about summer time here in this hell hole we call South Dakota. It has rained constantly for about the past 2 weeks and it SUCKS. Yesterday was almost 95 which is way to warm for may. So i sat inside with clara for the day in my nice air conditioned room. I felt horrible because my boyfriend Steve, had to work even when they told him he wouldnt have to. He ended up working today too pretty much on 0 sleep. So he is tired, and kind of crabby but still loveable and sweet. Nothing really new is going on with me or clarabug. Oh i guess there is, we have attempted to start potty training and have made a little bit of progress, she has started going on the potty at least once a day yay. About a month ago, Steve took me shooting for the first time, and even though i was scared i shot a few guns and i LOVED it. i have then since gone shooting 2 other times and it is sooo fun. I am trying to live life in the moment as steve does because he seems a hell of a lot happier then i do. I tend to live in the past or try to hard for the future. I am done looking in the past and even though i have high hopes for the future, i am going to try to live in the present and not let things get to me so much. That is all for now.

Update

Hello guys, just a quick update, clara turned 2 on feb 4th and had a great birthday. She can count to 10 now on most days but seems to keep forgetting to add 4. I will be 20 years old in two days so ill officially NOT be a teenager any more haha. I just finished my finals and ended up with B+'s as my final grades in BOTH classes. I have another EEG on friday which i am so not looking forward to at all. I found a different way to administer tylenol and ibuprofan to clara, since she is two now she can have the chewable ones, and she likes those better then the liquid so im not going to complain. But yeah theres an update, ill update you guys more AFTER my EEG on friday.

Update

Well here is an update for you all. Clara is going to be 2 years old in just 9 days!!! I am still doing school, im about 24 credits away from my associates. My sister moved out in July so now its just me, my grandma and clarabug. Clara is talking sooo much now its nuts, she barely says just one word anymore, its all sentences. She is finally getting hair now so i can put her hair in pigtails YAY.. she can count to 7 now and is just doing exceptionally well in everything she does. She has an ear infection right now and OMG it is a huge war with her getting the medicine down. She is definately in the terrible twos now. When i took her to the doctor the other day she through a fit when they wanted to weigh her, she refused to let them listen to her heart and it took, me a nurse and the doctor to hold her down so the doctor could check her ears!...Happy monday everyone

Medical Diagnosis

Ok, so here is wat happened, my doctor wanted to have an EEG done because i asked her about seeing things when i closed my eyes. Ok, so it turns out that those things that i see when i close my eyes are actually my subconcious coming out. They only come out when i have seizures. I actually had a BAD seizure when i had the EEG, i dont remember much, i remember laying there with the bright flashing light, i remember the lady telling me to open and close my eyes, and then i remember vibrating kinda, and then i blacked out. When i woke up, i had 3 people standing over me helping me and my shoulder hurt really bad. I spoke with the doctor that reviewed the video of me and he said that my seizure lasted a good 3-4 minutes and that he wouldnt be surprised if i didnt pull my shoulder out of its socket. I went and saw a neurologist, and apparently i have epilepsy, and have had it since i was 11 (mind u i thought those seeing things was just my imagination so i never mentioned it to anyone), So... ya, im stressing out about it because now i can't drive, and i have a MRI on tuesday which iv never had before, and im scared of it so... ya. Well just thought id update you all, clara is doing very well, she is running now, and is talking more and more every day.