Vent

Today has been so fucked up i dont even know where to start, the only good thing about today is the fact that i got mcdonalds for breakfast. Today was supposed to be the day Clara, Jon and me got professional pics taken, but no, thanks to his stupid ass it didnt happen. I want melissa to move back in here cuz as of thursday she will have no place to live, and i'm not one to let one of my friends live out on the street with her 1 year old daughter. My grandma of course is bitching about it stating that she has to pay $200 up front, but melissa can not do that. She is just mad because Karen, (my sister who doesnt take care of my daughter) hasnt paid her rent yet, so all the bills are all backed up. I seriously just want to move out but i have no idea how i am going to do that. Sorry to vent, i'm just really really depressed right now.

So... i'm depressed

I am kinda depressed lately. I realized that i barely have friends, the bills aren't getting paid due to my stupid sister not paying her rent. Jon isn't paying me back the money he owes me and my car is deader then a door nail so i cant go anywhere. I was supposed to go to a moms night out tomarrow but the lady that was supposed to take me canceled on me at the last minute, and i really needed to get out of the house ya know.... but yeah so i think i have a problem, well two problems actually, one is a buying problem, like i can not go to the store without buying something, i need to get help but i am not sure who to call or what to ask. I also have a problem with being attached to people, like not everyone, just certain people that have come into my life, i have become insanely attached to. I don't know why i do this either. I need help but again, not sure how to ask for it, or what to say. I need help... in more ways then 1..... thanks for letting me vent.

37 days till christmas

yes if u cant tell from my title, i am counting down the days till christmas, i am soooo freaking excited, i so cant wait to see the look on claras face when she opens her presents! So, yeah my friend melissa moved out, she is staying with a friend now. Which kinda saddens me, it was cool having a friend there for me, ya know, anyway clara has decided that she wants to try standing unassisted, she will stand up on something, and then let go for a few seconds. shes getting pretty good at it, she can stand for 5 seconds before she falls down. I think she has a bug cuz this mornin she puked all over my floor, i didnt know what to do so i just cuddled her and rubbed her back, then i wiped her off and cuddled her some more. I also went and got her some pedialyte just in case she pukes again. But... yeah thats pretty much the highlight of my day, other then the fact that i found out my "A" dropped to a "B" in one of my classes, but i have a 100% in the other class so i guess im ok, write more soon,

kalsy

Monday Letter

Ok, so things have been going pretty well the past few days, except today. Today like seriously sucked, first of all i couldnt find my wallet(i left it in my BIL's car) then i had to reschedule my app with my car insurence person and then on top of it all my cousin told me that i needed to watch my kid more.... i watch her 24/7 and cant get a 5 minute break once in a while. *rolls eyes* anyway so me and melissa are going to set up a photo shoot tomarrow and attempt to take professional pictures. Oh and i think i have OCD, I thought it was bipolar(still might be) but i think its OCD too, like i have horrible compulsive tendencies. Like today i just rearanged my entire room.... again. I also have a horrible compulsive buying habit. I can not go to the store without buying something, i'm sorry i just cant help it. but ok i'm ranting so i'll let u guys go back to your purposefull lives. Just thought i'd let you guys know what was going on up in SD

ps: Halloween was awesome!!!