WEBSITE!!!

Ok, i am going to make this short and sweet... my grandma's sister paid for this program for me to learn how to make money online(y, i have no idea, she just called and told me she did it and wanted my email address) anyway.. one of the ways to make money is to make a website and sign up for a thing with ads, whenever someone clicks on the ads i get money for it. Only like $0.50 an ad, but still.. that could really add up. So if you could all find it in your hearts to go to my website and click on them that would be greatly appreciated since i cant keep a job and i dont have any other means of income... THANKS in advance to the ones that do click... click on all the ads except the one at the top.. also any feedback on what i could add to the site would be great!


www.theteenagemother.com

New Update!

Ok, so clara is doing pretty good, shes still got a stuffy nose, but im pretty sure that has to do with my dumb ass sister smoking in the car when we go somewhere with her... ANYWAY... guess what guys? Clara says sentences! I'm totally not even joking she really does... it started all the sudden too, which makes me think shes been practicing them secretly lol, anyway she says "i want some" "mommy i want some" "i want down" "that my grandma". its kinda tripping me out, i mean she already says about 17 words and now sentences!!!!! We had a fun day today, we went to the park and had a bbq with Claras grandparents... which was really fun because we all havent hung out in months. Claras grandpa immediately stole her so i just kinda watched them... lol, Clara went swinging (which she LOVES SOOOO much) she went down the slide with grandpa, and went in the sand box, and he even walked around with her, with her holding onto her hands it was cute... you can tell shes gonna end up LOVING her grandparents when she gets older(although im pretty sure she already does...) Claras grandma is doing better, she gets her second round of chemo on wednesday so i guess we will see how that goes. I have been praying that she gets through this because i would hate to lose her too, shes become like a second mom to me. Anyway... its supposed to be a blizzard here with at least 2 feet of snow and 50mph winds... its the (as my grandma calls it) equinox storm... which she says happens before the weather gets nice and stays nice.... which im all for, me and clara want to start going for walks again... but ok i hope you all had a great weekend!

So upset.

Ok, this is more of a vent then anything, i am not sure what i am supposed to do. The DNA thing went through ok, so now i am just waiting for that signed piece of paper. Well since the stupid lady at social services kept pushing me, i decided to call social security and find out what the hell all the stupid comotion was about. So i told the lady i spoke to what happened, gave her Jons SS number and she looked it all up, and i cant get anything for clara. I thought i could handle raising clara on my own without it but i cant. I barely get enough money from school and what i do get usually has to pay for bills because my dumb ass sister doesnt pay anything, plus the money i do get i only get like 2x a year.. thats not gonna last me that long... I dont know what im supposed to do. I thought about getting a job but come to the conclusion that i can't handle a job with my anxiety and bipolar. I dont know what to do and im really freaking out here. I have no financial support from anyone, I cant support my own daughter, and that kills my inside....

Update!

Ok, so i have written in a few weeks so i thought i would update you guys that actually read my blog. Anyway so... Clara is almost walking, she has started taking one step by herself here and there... yesterday she took 2 by herself! Life has been pretty boring around here lately, i havent been able to sleep like i should, so lately iv been getting about... 3-3 1/2 hours of sleep a night. I went to the doctor today and i got put on new medication, so pray that this one actually works. I got a new tattoo today, its a black lined cross with pink hearts at the end of each point. its really pretty. My brother in law went with me to get it done, and he was sitting there asking me if i was gonna cry, but actually i was doing the exact opposite, i laughted, i mean it did hurt for about a minute, and then it started tickling... i hate being tickled so it was really hard for me to sit still through it all but i got it done. We are still trying to do the DNA thing, gotta wait another 9 days before i get results back to see if we can even USE the dna, which im hoping i can or else jons wish is going down the drain. So one of my friends suggested that since im having a hard time talking with my counselor about Jon's death... that i write it down before hand, and let her read my letter. So, yeah i have an app on friday so im gonna try that. Oh yeah and i got a tv and dvd player, and i have figured out that clara likes seseme street. She also likes a few other things, but for some reason seseme street is her fav. But yeah thats all thats been goin on with me. Ill try to write again soon.